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Welcome to Metanoia Madness

Metanoia Madness is not just a podcast. It is a space for soul-level transformation and truth.

Created and hosted by Nicholas Cornell Bradshaw, Metanoia Madness explores the real process of self-discovery, emotional healing, and spiritual awakening. It is not about becoming someone new but remembering who you have always been beneath the conditioning, the fear, and the noise.

Each episode is an invitation to slow down, tune in, and come home to yourself. To explore the space between breakdown and breakthrough, to find meaning in the moments that feel uncertain, and to discover that alignment never asks you to become more, only to release what you are not.

Through intimate storytelling, grounded spiritual insight, and reflective dialogue, Nicholas guides listeners through the genuine experience of transformation. Not the polished version you see online, but the human kind that is often messy, emotional, and profound.

You will find conversations about:

• Spiritual Awakening and Conscious Growth: learning to trust divine timing, surrender control, and see synchronicity as a language of the soul

• Emotional Intelligence and Inner Healing: understanding your emotions as energy, building self-trust, and transmuting pain into purpose

• Mindset Shifts and Manifestation: reframing fear, scarcity, and doubt into clarity, confidence, and ease

• Detachment and Flow: releasing the need to force outcomes and returning to the natural rhythm of life

• Masculine and Feminine Integration: exploring energetic balance, sacred connection, and the spiritual depth of love

• Intentional Living: aligning your choices, habits, and environment with who you are becoming

Nicholas speaks to those who feel deeply. The ones who overthink, the ones who sense there is more to life than what they can see, and the ones ready to live a life that feels aligned rather than performed. His voice bridges the spiritual and the emotional, the mystical and the practical.

If you have ever felt caught between your past and your potential, if you have questioned your purpose, or if you are simply searching for something real in a world that tells you to keep performing, this is your reminder that you are not alone.

Metanoia Madness is a home for those walking through the in-between.

For those shedding old identities.

For those learning that peace is not found, it is remembered.

For those ready to release the version of themselves built for survival and step into the truth of who they were always meant to be.

This journey is not about perfection. It is about presence. It is about honoring every season of life, whether it is still, chaotic, rebuilding, or rebirthing. Because healing is not a finish line. It is a rhythm that unfolds through awareness, surrender, and grace.

Join thousands of listeners around the world as we explore what it means to live from alignment, reclaim your energy, and remember your light even when life feels heavy.

Metanoia Madness is for the modern soul seeker, the one awakening to their truth, the one who knows transformation is not madness. It is freedom.

When Pain Starts to Feel Like Identity – Metanoia Madness

There is a moment in healing when you realize your pain has been doing more than hurting you. It has been shaping you.In Episode 98 of Metanoia Madness, Nicholas explores how emotional wounds quietly evolve into identities when they are carried too long without awareness. Pain settles into the body, informs reactions, shapes expectations, and slowly becomes mistaken for personality.This episode breaks down how survival adaptations form emotional characters that take the lead in relationships, decision-making, and self-perception. We look at how trauma responses such as emotional detachment, hyper-independence, numbness, avoidance, people-pleasing, and guardedness are often not traits at all, but protective roles learned in moments of overwhelm.Rather than treating healing as something to fix, this episode invites you to recognize the difference between the version of yourself that learned how to survive and the deeper self that was never broken. You will explore how wounds become familiar, how familiarity becomes identity, and how awareness creates the space to return to yourself without shame.This is not about erasing the past. It is about reclaiming the parts of you that pain overshadowed and remembering that what happened to you explains your patterns, but it does not define who you are. If you have ever felt like your reactions do not reflect your truth, if you have wondered why softness feels unsafe, or if you are ready to outgrow the armor you built in a season of survival, this episode is an invitation to come home to yourself.
  1. When Pain Starts to Feel Like Identity
  2. You Don’t Need a Sign. You Need to Trust Your First Knowing.
  3. Stop Trying to Be the Person People Remember You As
  4. You Can't Heal Inside A Story You Never Question
  5. The Freedom That Comes When You Stop Forcing Your Life
And that’s Okay 🥹 https://www.instagram.com/reel/DNlUGovxSUr/ Woke up wanting to speak to the dreamers today 🫶🏽 You don’t have to untangle every thought tonight. You’re not the same person who had to shrink to be loved. I Touched a Cactus 🌵 Where do you find your strength? I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about my ancestors. So that’s what we’re talking about in today’s episode 🫶🏽 Wondering where do I start ?

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